Make me, make me sweat
til I`m wet, til I`m dry
but then wipe this tear from my eye
haven`t felt this warm in a long time
even out in the bright sunshine
in lifetime of springtimes
I fall into your arms
with my heart pumpin` on
like a bubblin` dub track
like a garlicy hot tonque and lip smack
I did some contemplation
before we got down to this consecration
maybe baby something in you kiss said
it was an impetous
for me to rethink this
If I love you
then I better get tested
make sure we`re protected
I walk through the park
dressed like a question mark
Hark!
I hear my memory bark
in the back of my brain,
makn` me insane...
...like cocaine
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But how`m I gonna live my life if I`m positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
How`m I gonna live my life if I`m positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
but how`m I gonna live my life if I`m positive?
It dawned on me, it seemed to me
this is unusual scenery
this red light greenery
make me feel kinda dreamery
thinkin` how I used to be
Arrive at the clinic
walk through the front door
take a nervous number
then I think about it more
about all the time
that I neglected
makin sure that
I was protected
They took my blood
With an anonymous number
two weeks waitin` wonderin`
I shoulda done this a long time ago
alot of excuses why I couldn`t go
I know these things and these things I must know
`cause it`s better to know than to not know!
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I go home to kick it
in my apartment
I try to give myself
a risk assessment
the wait is what can really annoy ya
everyday is more paranoya
I`m readin` about how it`s transmitted
some behavior I must admit it
who I slept with, who they slept with,
who they, who they, who they slept with
I think about life and immortality
what`s the first thing I do if I`m H.I.V
have a cry and tell my mother
get on the phone and call my past lovers
I never thought about infectin` anotha
all the times that I said Hmmm? Don`t bother.
Was it really all that magic?
The times I didn`t use a prophalactic
Would my whole life have to change?
or would my whole life remain the same?
sometimes it makes me wanna shout!
all these things too hard to think about
a day to laugh, a day to cry
a day to live and a day to die
`til I find out, I may wonder
but I`m not gonna live my life six feet under
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