[Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]
(Suicide Hotline, may I help you?)
Yeah...uh...well I`m `bout to fuckin` kill myself
(Listen, you don`t wanna do that, okay? You don`t wanna do that)
I`m gonna..eh...there`s so many fuckin` reasons why
I don`t even need to be here anymore (There`s no reason..)
I`m gonna put a slug in my fuckin` head!
(You don`t wanna do that, you wanna be here on Earth okay?)
Fuck that shit man! I got a gun right now..(Put it away)
And I got it right under my chin man, fuck that!
(Take it away from your chin)
I`m gonna fuckin` blow my head all over the ceiling
(No you`re not..okay?)
Fuck this shit man..
(Hey, just talk to me, okay?)
[Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]
It ain`t no point to me wakin` up
Everybody`s time I`m takin` up (Noo)
I got nobody, it ain`t a shoulder near
I can`t stay here and it`s colder there (Where?)
I don`t wanna look back `cause it`s gonna hurt
I slice my wrists and it`s gonna squirt (Ooh)
For me, everybody holds a hate
I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake
It`s no roads to take, I`m in a circle drive (Ooh)
Bustin` at myself and I`m tryin` to survive
I`ll disappoint you, and I will let you down
And I ain`t got many home boys comin` around (No?)
You don`t understand, so don`t say you do (Oh yes I do)
I swear I`ll put a motherfuckin` slug in you (Now now)
I`m the only one, the lonely one
at home alone, loadin` a gun thinkin` why not?
[Suicide Hotline Operator]
Why not? Why you wanna die?
Okay, you have feelings inside your head, okay?
I understand that, feelings lead to depression
When you have depression, you have a lonely void inside of your heart
Okay? And your heart means everything to the world, okay?
[Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]
I got court comin` up, I stole the truck
I got a bitch pregnant and I`m broke as fuck
I wanna get high but I got piss test (Well..)
I`m always first name on top of the shit list (Noo)
Get this, the Witch has made my chest
It`s permanent nightly visiting nest (What?)
It ain`t no clothes that I look good in
I`m the motherfuckin` big red train that couldn`t
I got no family, I stole they shit (Okay)
Restraining orders and I still won`t quit
I hit rock bottom, and then I fell in a hole
and then I fell through the floor of that hole some more
I been missing for a year, nobody`s lookin` (I am)
I got beat down and my shit tookin` (Ooh)
I look ahead and all I see is more of the same
or this self inflicted bullet hole pourin` my brain
[Suicide Hotline Operator]
Oooookay, I understand that you`re in pain, okay?
I understand everything you`re going through
I`ve been there myself, okay?
Now, your pain is my pain, alright?
And I feel your pain, and I wanna be your friend
Just me and you, friends
[Verse - Violent J + (Suicide Hotline Operator)]
I dream about cuttin` heads off with a shovel (What?)
The dreams are gettin` serious, think I`m in trouble (Oh my..)
I don`t hold memory for more than an hour
I`m tired as fuck and I`m drained of power
I ain`t half way there and I`m all outta time
I`m like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine (Oh no..)
I been around the world but no place is home
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome
I`m butt naked, I been jackin` off gettin` drunk
It`s my last hours alive, who gives a fuck? (Me)
It don`t matter, I`m doin` the shit in the garage
Tryin` to make it easier for them to clean my head splaage
This bitch I loved, I hope she finds me
Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me (Wait, wait..)
I`m `bout to do it (*beep*)
Can you hold for a second? (Wait a min..)
[Violent J + Girl]
Hello?
(Hey, what`s up?)
Where you at?
(Right down the street)
With who?
(My girl Shannon, we were wonderin` if we could stop by)
Well shit, yeah, come on by
(Really?)
Yeah..hey hey hey hey.
(I know, bring some blunts alright)
(*chuckle*) Alright, bye
