[Grand Agent]
Uh-huh
Special dedication... to the bastards of the world
It`s from the heart, Grand Agent
You know it`s funny I ain`t never had a child before
From what I hear though it`s somethin magical for sure
Some in the know have told me it`s like, no other rush
To feel oneself willing to receive so much
From what I hear though, you got about a dozen or so
And when they need you, we gotta let the government know
Daddy`s not being supportive, so now the courts is
forever laced in recollections of your face
You wasn`t checkin for me, I was just a case
Summoned you from down south, mouth full of foul taste
I heard about the drama, the shots ringin out
I know about the white bitch you was bringin to the house
Yeah, mommy put me on to all the wrongs done
But in absentia, who could defend ya? I`m your son
Not your lawyer, you innocent in my book of life
And yo I only came by to see what you look
And it`s funny I could tell by the look of your lady
I was yours, cause she was raw plus she played me
like you taught her to work for you, that`s my M.O.
It had to come from somewhere, Flow recognize Flow
I copped a Heineken and then like my money she slid
over to the jukebox, I followed her when she did
and asked if she knew where to find you, now mind you
I hadn`t a clue what I`ma say if she do
And when she did, disappearin down a hall to fetch you
I lent the pen to my mind`s eye to sketch you
Six foot three or maybe six foot two
No more guessin would a nigga ever be put through
And it`s funny cuz I wasn`t really willing to bother
`til it hit me that I wasn`t lookin for me a father
See, Allah`s mine, and that fact padded the impact
when your lady returned and said I had to come back...
[Chorus: unknown singer]
You don`t love me...
and I know now...
You don`t love me...
cause you don`t know how
[Grand Agent]
And it`s funny, it`s not that I feel fatherless
I guess what you never had is real hard to miss
My sister pop did what he could, when he could
And it`s not like I was the only orphan in the hood
And damn sure wasn`t at them schools I was sent to
for safekeepin in the dark, while mommy went through
her own plight, takin her demons to war
I only had dreams of home like bein on tour
where family`s a foreign entity to the mind
Though mommy wrote me mad letters, I guess that`s why I write better
It`s funny, it came together unseen
But just between me and you, this rap shit is one dream
I had some others too, like givin wifey one or two
seeds, whe need that but not if I`ma do how you do
(Our love goes) back and forth and forth and
back from L.A. the last time I asked for her hand
And made it happen in less than a month
That`s one less want, in less than like four I was out the door
I know that`s probably more than you need to hear
But sayin all that to say you not bein here bred fear
I bled tears from the heart on my sleeve
A nigga needed you around like you couldn`t believe
(for boys to man shit) I know life`s coy and candid
No way to really plan it, that`s why I don`t demand shit
I`m sayin` though, but on the other hand
With flesh, you can`t imagine what I`m willing to understand
So look, I`m twenty-something, with stupid money comin
I don`t need you for nuttin why you still frontin?
It`s beyond me
But I`m sure you know where to find me
So when you ready set your mind free
[Chorus] - repeat to end
