The Miracle — текст песни (suicidal tendencies)

I sailed forever, I sailed so far, and now I know
just what the consequences are
I laughed out loudy, while I cried inside
But I didn`t haave the strength to say enough of this ride
Like a fool-I believed in a miracle
I wanted to forget, of what I`m not sure
But I found an answer-it seemed to be a perfect cure

Controlled my actions, controlled my thoughts
Controlled my feelings, and now I feel my body rot-like a fool

I believed in the miracle

Twisting and I`m turning-freezing then I`m burning
Laughing then I`m crying-am I living or am I dying
Swearing then I`m praying-don`t even know what I`m saying
Happy then so sad-forgiving then so mad

Do you still, do you still believe, do you still believe in,
Do you still believe in miracles?

Pushing then pulling-who am I fooling
A friend then a foe-do I really even know?
Love and then hate
Peace then at war-but what am I fighting for
And you always try to
Keep me-oh so sleepy
So I can`t realize-that it`s all lies
And the more it takes hold of me-the less chance that I`ll ever be free
And even though I don`t believe-it`s so hard to leave-a miracle-a miracle

Waiting-always hesitating-for that perfect day-that day was yesterday
And the more you`re gonna wait-the more of a chance that it will be too late

How can you afford to wait, you just can`t afford to wait
I shed a tear I won`t deny it, but just one tear I already cried it
And now you`ll see me cry no more, don`t even know what I was crying for