Better — текст песни (Good Riddance)

there`s no sense waiting in this state
i`ve realized too late
there`s only so much left inside
only so much space to hide
i`ve dreamed of castles in the air
but i`ve never found out where
i need a break or a vacation
before i give myself a scare

don`t try to understand me your logic won`t command me
don`t try to read between my mind

if i could kill you with a touch
i`d never hate this much
one thousand colors every day
but all i see is grey
my history is plagiarized
i feel desensitized
maybe one more shot of reason
will ripple this disguise

i told that man just what i thought of him
so i`m right where i am tied to this bed
subconsciously restrained and now i wish i hadn`t said
what i said to both of my parents because i made my mother cry
if they`d only wait i`ll make it up to them because i can be a better man

i`m floating in a frozen sea
i`ll watch the morning break
giving way to shades of brown
i see the colors all around
for once there`s no one here but me
and my autumn reverie
and in my heart i know
it`s as close as i`ll ever be