Infected — текст песни (misery loves co)

There`s something inside of me,
it tears it all apart.
What I once was can never be,
what you will be I`ll never see.
Can`t find the strength to erase it
as it crushes my will to live.
Don`t want you close enough to smell me,
God I wish I had the courage to kill
Always there to beat me down,
to remind me of who I am.
The one to hold me back,
when I pretend I`m alive again.
Don`t wanna be the way I am
I`d like to turn around and walk away.
I wish I had the courage to kill,
God I wish I had the courage to kill

I wish I had the courage to kill

No one can see me now,
alone with my doubt and fear.
I`m so tired of myself,
so if you leave me can I come to?
once I tried to listen,
but I just could not understand.
I`m a stranger to myself,
so if you leave me can I come to?
if you leave me can I come to?

Am I someone special?
Can I be replaced?
I keep repeating myself,
did I disappoint you?
Did I always fail?
I keep repeating myself

There`s something inside of me,
it tears it all apart.
What I once was can never be,
what you will be I`ll never see.
Can`t find the strength to erase it
as it crushes my will to live.
Don`t want you close enough to smell me,
God I wish I had the courage to kill

Am I someone special?
Can I be replaced?
I keep repeating myself,
did I disappoint you?
Did I always fail?
I keep repeating myself
am I acting strange?
or just like everyone else?
I keep repeating myself.
Can`t someone help me?
Can`t you see I`m afraid,
can`t you see I`m afraid... <i>[x2]
I`m afraid <i>[x2]