[Verse 1]
Surrounded by smoke my self identity feelin` nobody feelin` me
Nightmares be killin` me no different from reality
Picture us trapped, in a desert where niggas sticky and hot
Hot, broke and confused wid a extra clip for a glock
Why, nobody needin` nobody like I,
Livin` life confused and high when evrything die
Am I wrong for my own thinkin`,
Do they like or hate me for the wrong reasons
When I can`t control my alcohol drinkin`
Somebody close put some lead on me,
I never figured I get shot, more different times by my own homies
A crazy world that we livin` in,
Fuck friends nigga you work when you givin` in
Then they said freedom til them bastards rott
They said hustle til your basket crop,
My nigga thug til the casket drop
So I live watchin` my enemies,
Cause this world ain`t no kin to me
And nobody no friend to me
Ridin` bucket, my middle finger symbol fuck it
While clutchin` the glock forty trigger livin` the way I love it
Light can`t even take me alive,
It cost more to survive than workin` 9 to 5
My nigga picture your dreams up on a triple beam
And want it bad like a dope fiend, want crack, nigga stack cream,
And keep your eyes on your enemies why,
Real niggas know they live to die
And it seems nothin` really matters now
But I wasn`t killed, thank God but still it`s hard to be positive
No love when I ain`t buckin` on my life alright,
Even though I bled from a gunfight
And who really cares if they don`t understand
I`m a confused black man in this crime land
Snortin` lines ah funk damn I need weed just to calm down
Can`t sleep or eat or put my gun down
And they tellin` me what to be or what they see
Through my shinin` eyes hopin` I help `em if I did rise
But who gon` be off in my corner when I`m fallin` back
Like them niggas that I`m deep wid and ain`t callin` back
They got no love for me, and Lord knows they don`t care for me
Cause He the only one there for me,
But they don`t wanna see me get out wild
When I`m at the point ah no return
Nothin` in the world really matters now
Cause I was,
[Hook]
Shot down but I wasn`t killed
One life to live, thank God but still it`s hard to be positive
No love when I ain`t buckin` on my life alot
Retaliation on the pop, so it`s understood
[Verse 2]
Let`s take a journey through my mind`s eye
I can`t explain how I feel watchin` time fly
A dirty game am I wrong for my desperation
To stack mil gettin` high makin` crack sales and black males
Sixteen snort cocaine, wid mean mugs on they face afta the last drain
A damn shame it`s the full moon, I hope to God I don`t die soon
Runnin` through wid speed like a typhoon
Maybe the answer in The Book loc, dictionary thick
When I ain`t never learn shit but how to cook dope
And I ain`t never knew no national anthem, or no bullshit propaganda
Cause I`m to busy throwin` tipper tantrums
You wonder why they call me Gemini I can`t lie,
So many signs to my mind`s eye,
Wish I could fly and just spread my wings and be free in the breeze
Maybe that`s why I smoke weed
And nothin` really matters now
[Hook]
But I wasn`t killed
One life to live, thank God but still it`s hard to be positive
No love, when I ain`t buckin` on my life alot
Retaliation on the pop, it`s understood
Shot down but I wasn`t killed
One life to live, thank God but still it`s hard to be positive
No love, when I ain`t buckin` on my life alot
Retaliation on the pop, it`s understood
(3x)
