A perceived notion in a nation of contemplation
Thoughts get expressed through a mental masturbation
Castration of the mind is sought to relieve conditions
But anything short of a lobotomy won`t release inhibitions
Dissing a mainstream rapper but my flow branched off
And now my own stream is formed where activists stand off
We were prepared for the floodgates to open
We thought a barge would work but overflow left it broken
Over saturation turned your dreams to fabrication
And they`re still asleep to believe they`re atop this rap nation
I used to have aspirations for cash, ass and Asians
Now I`m trying to survive against attempts at assassination
So if you`re with me throw your fists in the air
Conformers of commercialism better listen with care
I`ll drink Crys if it`s free but I`ll settle for beer (SE)
And next year it`s a sure bet that Ed will be here
Still writing magnificent rhymes dropping lines for you to quote them
On of off the internet, whether T3 or modem
Encrypt the script I`ll leave it up to you to decode them
The Rumpelstiltskin of rap, everything sowed is golden
Let`s not talk about the plaques you holdin son
Cause I`m a hot, smart kid who kicks raps rolled in one
So unload your gun. How dare you take shots at me
Disrespect, of course I`m gonna talk obnoxiously
Constantly, I`ve been told to act responsibly
So my true feelings get wrote and put on CD
And honestly, I never understood what a battle was
Until I couldn`t sleep one night and I had to battle drugs
And drugs had the one up but I`d been testing him for years
So I figured it was best to quit and put to rest all of my fears
I went from half pill to no pills saw coke hills on dope deals
Through the smoke fields but cleaned my act like Bernie Mac
For Fox primetime and I`m still fine with my rhymes
Fine with my Karma, still cool with father and Mama
Make comparisons if you wanna cause I could give a shit
I`m an original kid who had a goal fucker and I`m living it
Come on Eddie Haskill there`s no reason to swear
I don`t even have time to walk the beach and feel the breeze in my hair
I`m just trying to make my mark but too many emcees in here
Want to get that money just to be able to throw G`s in the air
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I wish that I knew what I know now... when I was younger
I wish that I knew what I know now... when I was stronger
I thought my rhymes would be stronger, catch wreck with a curse
Or put a hex on you first, incorporate sex in the verse
Rhyme about a Tec that`s on burst
Protect my neck to the hearse, infect you with words
Imagine that. Then I dressed like there was a beauty pageant in rap
Without a video to shoot no stage performance or an audience
Settling for gaudiness I admit to coming with corniness
But it took me till 22 to realize how to story this
And I got to thank the movies that inspired me to write
Jacob`s ladder showed me the dangers to hide in the light
In retrospect I shouldn`t have used Scarface for a muse
There`s a lot of other shit to do with 24 hours to lose
Magnolia opened my eyes through the fog
I found the true meaning of coincidence disguised as a frog
The Usual Suspects helped me see through the mist
The greatest trick the devil pulled was proving he didn`t exist
And Shawshank Redemption helped me put fears aside
Cause hope is a good thing and no good thing ever dies
12 Monkeys helped prove that ya`ll be missing me
When we get to the point in life when the future is history
Whenever there`s a time and I feel I cant handle this
I can throw on any one of the three Wes Anderson flicks
As for American Beauty I`m forever glad they made it
And the reason behind this is explained on Loved or Hated
