it`s not a prop — текст песни (Heatmiser)

i`ll be shutting down soon
didn`t mean to be so let down
i don`t know why he left the room
couldn`t keep his attention
i`ll be switching off soon
it`s never going to happen
feel like i`ve been put in my place
a secret admirer for life
the drink in my hand ain`t no prop
it`s what`s left of my collapsing night
who do i lean my ladder against
to get over my embarrassment
i want him without regret
i want it written in cement
such a sucker for attention
to wipe the dust off my still life
the drink in my hand ain`t no prop
it`s what`s left of my collapsing night
i`m not moving
i can`t calm down
i won`t say anything
i won`t remember any names
i`m not moving
i can`t calm down
i won`t remember anything

i`m just going back to bed
prosecute myself all night
i`m my own biggest threat
said nothing wrong but i can`t get it right