Why — текст песни (Lil Trip)

I dream that I just got a new house, a new car
No more smokin` dope, no more hangin` at the bars
I can`t believe my eyes, I`m actually living well
Then I wake up and realize I`m just a prisoner in hell
I scream in terror, but nobody seems to hear me
They act like they scared of me, won`t even come near me
Is there something wrong wit` me? Am I not even alive?
I already have died, see the demons in my eyes?
What`s my purpose? Why the fuck am I here?
Why don`t I have a fear? Will I live to see next year?
Is there a God? he must not care if so
Cuz if he did, he wouldn`t let muthafuckaz get smoked
But we all gotta die, so fuck it, don`t cry
I really can`t lie, that I ain`t scared to die
But I know I won`t fly, I know that I`m hellbound
But hell can`t be worse than this cuz I`m in hell now
Everyday is a struggle, just tryin` to make it
Muthafuckaz always come to me sayin` I`m fakin`
Or gettin` arrested, it seems like it`s constant
I`m screamin`, Fuck the world, I can`t deal with this nonsense
Who will take the time to bury me when I die?
I didn`t care for nobody, so nobody should cry
But why? I don`t know, I just can`t change
I try real hard, but my mind is deranged
I guess I`m just a psychopath, tryin` to make a mill
But I`m not livin`, I`m a ghost sent from hell
I guess my heart`s froze, from all that cold blood
Or I don`t got one cuz I`m a muthafuckin` thug

[Chorus-2x]
Why? Why do we all gotta die? Why? Why do I have to get high
To get by, so that I can just lie, `Till the moment I die,
and then cry in the flames while I fry, I won`t get to fly
Cuz I can`t even try, you can see in my eyes, I just don`t know why
We all have to lie, we all have to die, but don`t cry
You know I ain`t scared to die