Every Reason To — текст песни (Coalesce)

I`ve never since felt life as dry as it was inside you.
I`ve tasted plenty and it only made me gag.
I wanted more.
Now i have it all, without you.
If i could have only left without that thought.
I would have left with him.
And you a childless wreck.
I would have taken it upon myself to leave you strapped
with the burden of unclear thinking.
That`s what you do best, you`re always thinking and not acting rationally.
You just needed someone to love you.
God know i don`t.
I never did so disappear.
You gave me every reason to
and still i didn`t break your face in.
So where`s my son and where`s your scars?
Do you still limp from my fist fucking fetish?
And my midnight naked messages in your ears?
So why didn`t they come?
Why wasn`t she born?
I would have taken her right from underneath you.
She would call you mother,
i would call you host,
and you would just call on every lie you could to feel just and sane.
Keep your word.
How little do i really understand?
I knew enough not to touch you there.
I should have saved myself for the last
but still i broke in the beginning and broke your hold in the end.
And on you went barren and content.
And i the other direction experienced in nothing special.