Failure — текст песни (Swans)

I, I`ve been lonely
And I, I`ve been blind
And I,. I`ve learned nothing
So my hands are firmly tied
To the sinking leadweight
of failure

I`ve worked hard all my life
Money slips through my hands
My face in the mirror tells me
It`s no surprise that I`m
Pushing the stone up the hill
of failure

They tempt me with violence
They punish me with ideals
And they crush me with an image of my
life that`s nothing but unreal
Except on the goddamned slaveship
of failure

I`ll drown here trying
to get up for some air
But each time I think I breathe
I`m laid on with a double share
of the punishing burden
of failure

I don`t deserve to be down here
But I`ll never leave
And I`ve learned one thing
You can`t escape the beast
In the null and void pit
of failure

When I get my hands on some money
I`ll kiss it`s green skin
And I`ll ask it`s dirty face
Where the hell have you been?
I am the fuel that fires the engine
of failure.

I`ll be old and broken down
I`ll forget who and where I am
I`ll be senile or forgotten
But I`ll remember and understand
You can bank your hard-earned money
on failure

I saw my father crying
I saw my mother break her hand
On a wall that wouldn`t weep
But that certainly held in
The mechanical moans of a dying man
Who was a failure

My back hurts me when I bend
Because I carry a load
My brain hurts me like a knife-hole
Because I`ve yet to be shown
How to pull myself out from
The sucking quicksand
of failure

Some people live in hell
Many bastards succeed
But I. I`ve learned nothing
I can`t even elegantly bleed
Out the poison blood
of failure